What am I scared of ending?

Although I have been clean and sober for 18 months, I still mourn the loss of substances.
Holding on to dear memories and refusing closure, what else am I refusing of letting go off?

Part of it is a refusal to say No.

Saying goodbye means saying no to ever returning.
It means establishing a boundary and sticking to it.
And if I’m able to do it once, I’m more likely to keep going with it.
So once I stand my ground and say farewell, what other ties should I cut?

Staying out of pity or fear is worse than leaving.

I am scared of letting go of my grief for my pets that left too soon.
I feel bad and allow toxic people to stay in my life.
I keep unhealthy patterns alive because it is easier than changing.
I uphold expectations for myself out of pride, instead of accepting my authentic self.

“All endings are also beginnings.
We just don’t know it at the time.”
– Mitch Albom

When I remove blockages, I allow newness.
A new space which I don’t have to force, but which fills naturally with what is meant to be.
In order to overcome what is stopping me, I need to trust that my gut instinct is right.
I need to allow myself to heal and move on without regrets in order to grow.
Is there anything you’re holding on to? Share so we can give it up together!