Growing up, I was not allowed a safe outlet for my feelings. They were dangerous to my caretakers, and thus to me.
It's a strange time to feel lonely with lockdown easing. And yet, my heart aches for connection and validation.
Mental health struggles can leave us feeling helpless, even with self-care. How come I am lost again after years of experience?
I am terrified of using my trauma as an excuse for my current behaviour. How acknowledgment of insecurities equates to making excuses in my head, I don't know!
Trauma can feel very debilitating, removing agency and control from us. So when the waiting on feeling better is out of our hands too, we might just lose it a little.
While stuck in traffic last Sunday, my friends and I realised that anger is nothing more than being stuck perpetually in our fight response. Why do some things always get the better of us?
In the mind-body school of trauma, movement is a staple to recovery. Often we associate bodily sensations with danger, so we disassociate. But gentle movement therapy can help!
When I was still in the midst of it, I thought trauma could never be healed. But now I can see how trauma is not a life sentence!