Like many others, I have been struggling with low self-esteem for most of my life. There is pressure to deny this part of ourselves on social media, but is total positivity even possible?
There is a lot of uncertainty in my life, requiring me to sit with the feeling. Can I learn to be comfortable with the lack of validation and not feel guilty for not justifying my existence?
Today, I celebrated by cancelling all my plans and sleeping for hours. Sometimes, this is what depression looks like. Sometimes, it's self-care.
This year has been habit-breaking and habit-inducing at the same time. Not only did I beat a decade old addiction, I have also built new routines of healthy self-soothing.
Self-care has become synonymous for personal downtime and treating ourselves unhealthily. The true meaning of self-care has evaded us.