Category: ESSAIE
How to never practise self-abandonment again
Children of dysfunctional homes often end up repeating the same relationship patterns they learned early on, first of all with themselves. This is what feels safe and known; our nervous system and brain is still stuck in fight-or-flight mode and … Continue reading How to never practise self-abandonment again
Freelance your dreams: quitting a successful career to pursue film
Let’s be honest: A 9-5 career is not for everyone. Checking your work emails first things in the morning, spending your lunch breaks in skype meetings and going for networking drinks in the evening takes its toll. The perks of … Continue reading Freelance your dreams: quitting a successful career to pursue film
Nobody abused me more than I ever did (or how I became unstuck from my trauma)
In my never ending journey to heal childhood abuse, I’ve had to face a painful fact: I am the only one keeping my trauma alive. Now that I am an adult, nobody but me is responsible for how I feel … Continue reading Nobody abused me more than I ever did (or how I became unstuck from my trauma)
On finishing my first TV script – am I a script writer yet?
A few weeks ago I finally finished an idea that I’ve been working on for over a year. In it, we follow three generations of women across three different time lines to explore the trauma they inflict on each other, … Continue reading On finishing my first TV script – am I a script writer yet?
Depression taught me to live again
Last summer, my 2-year depression came to a head. I took myself to A&E and refused to leave, knowing that if I did, I would be all out of options with my suicidal depression. Previously, therapists had sent me away, … Continue reading Depression taught me to live again
Gratitude is an action – or how to do a gratitude journal properly
A friend of mine recently shared in my fellowship her discovery: gratitude is an action, not a feeling. Denominating it as a mere emotion degrades gratitude, and it changed the way I write out my daily (well, weekly) gratitude journal. … Continue reading Gratitude is an action – or how to do a gratitude journal properly
Vipassana Meditation in Nepal #video
Emotional sobriety – the holy grail of any recovery
In my own journey of processing childhood trauma and addiction I’ve come across the term ‘emotional sobriety‘ multiple times, and its poetry struck me. In all the meetings I’ve been to recently, I have not met a single addict with … Continue reading Emotional sobriety – the holy grail of any recovery
1917: Why you should sit through this ‘one-shot’ WWI dystopian nightmare
Since starting work in a cinema, I have been watching a movie a day (keeping the boredom away). Some I walked out of (Jumanji 2), some I perversely enjoyed more than I thought (Cats), some broke my little heart into … Continue reading 1917: Why you should sit through this ‘one-shot’ WWI dystopian nightmare
